Wednesday, July 29, 2009

College

My four years at CSUF were pretty life changing. I've changed so much since I was a young freshman back in the fall of 2005. I thought it would be cool to do a breakdown of each of the four years that I spent as a Titan.

Freshman year (2005-2006)- This was my first time living away from home. It was an adjustment period. I ended up going home every weekend. It was good to take a break from eating tv dinners and get a home cooked meal as well as do laundry. I went to Campus Crusade for Christ after going to their high school ministry, Student Venture, during my senior year. It was great meeting people my age who were passionate about God. I went to Fall Retreat and Christmas Conference and grew closer to God and the people who I was with. The begginings of some very solid friendships were established during freshman year.

Sophomore year (2006-2007)- This was my favorite year of college. I joined the leadership team with Crusade and grew very close with the students on the team as well as other people within the movement. I had a lot of fun hanging out with people outside of school. It was a year when a lot of relationships were formed, many of which have ended up in marriage recently.

Junior year (2007-2008)- This was my least favorite year of college. I went through a breakup the summer before and it took a long time for the pain to go away. I left the Crusade leadership team and battled through some tough times. There were definitely some bright spots though. I moved to the Hope International University dorms where my friend Mark was living. We grew a lot closer during this time and now he is one of my best friends. I also changed my major for the fourth time to Speech Communication.

Senior Year (2008-2009)- Senior year was an interesting time. I was in three weddings which was a cool experience. I had never had a really close friend get married before. This past year I was able to spend some quality time with a couple mentors/disiplers. It was beneficial for me to be able to be able to discuss life and the future with these guys. Over the course of the year I spent hours and hours wondering what I was going to do with my life. I had multiple ideas of what I wanted to do from being a baseball card photographer to being a staff member of Campus Crusade for Christ. I still don't know what I want to do but that's alright.

My time in college was a extremely valuable. I grew so much as a person. I met people who I hope will be life-long friends.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Life Update

A lot of things have happened since my last post. I've graduated and am looking for that 9-5 job that I have never really wanted- til now. I'm still really uncertain of where my life is headed. The job search started a couple months ago. I've had a few interviews but nothing has panned out yet. I've heard stories from people who have graduated and it took them 8 months to a year to find a job. I hope it doesn't take me that long. Once I get a job I can move back to Orange County and hang out with friends more easily.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Moving On Slowly

Blog post from June 2nd 2008:

"It looks like from now on people are going to be doing their own thing. People are getting married, on the road to getting married, or just have other big time commitments. Things are never going to be how they used to be. The community that I once enjoyed does not exist anymore and it's just going to keep dissolving more and more as time goes on. "

I wish that I could say that things have changed or that I was just being a little dramatic that day. Things aren't as bad as they were during the summer when I wrote the blog post above but they sure aren't great. I'm struggling. I miss my friends. I miss hanging out with people all the time. My friends have helped me become who I am today. It's been difficult for me to accept that things are different. I don't want them to be. That is why I have a desire to start over some place else. But what if the friends that I make in SD or wherever are just as busy as the friends I have now? People everywhere are going to have their own lives with their unique set of responsibilities. I don't know.

Fears

I fear the future. I've spent most of my life dreaming about being a baseball player not a guy working a 9-5 job. I didn't grow up wishing to work in a cubicle. I had bigger dreams for myself. I wish that I had some crazy goal to shoot for, some dream to follow.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Spring Break 2009

I'm currently in the midst of my last spring break as a college student. I don't have any crazy plans like last year when me and the guys were going to watch Mark attempt to woo a girl in Grand Rapids, Michigan. I mainly just want to rest and get some school stuff done. I only have 7 more weeks of school left! (hopefully). The future has been scaring me a lot lately. I've changed my mind a bunch of times with what I want to do after May 24th so I would be careful not to give this week's "plan for the future" too much weight. The game plan after graduation is to take a little bit of time off to relax. I might go on a vacation with my parents and maybe go on a camping trip with the guys. After that I plan on trying to find a job in the San Diego area. I want to find a room or an apt close to the beach. SD is a nice place and it isn't way too far from my parents or friends in Orange County.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Optimist: Me

I'm an optimist. I feel like is a good characteristic to have. I was looking at one of my blog posts from last January where I was wondering what would happen in 2008. I wondered about what the new year would bring. 2009 looks like it's going to be filled with a lot more uncertainty than any other year of my life. At some point during this year I won't be a student anymore. I've been a student since 1992 when I was five years old. Bill Clinton was in the first year of his presidency. Questions surround me about what life is going to look like. I don't know where I'm going to live. I don't plan on staying in Orange County so I will have to make new friends and acquiantances. I wish I was filled with more optimism that things are going to be great and that it's going to be a wonderful journey. But at the moment, the uncertainty is outweighing those fealings. I'm focused on the upcoming semester. It's my last full semester as a college student. I don't want to take this lifestyle for granted. I know that I'm going to miss it.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Untitled

At the beginning of chapter six in Randy Alcorn's book "The Treasure Principle" is a short story about Alfred Nobel. Nobel is the man who invented dynamite and made a fortune by doing so. In 1888 his brother had passed away and while Alfred was reading a French newspaper he saw an obituary for himself. The author of the column confused the two brothers when he was writing his article. Alcorn writes, " Alfred Nobels's obituary described a man who had gotten rich by helping people kill one another". He was dismayed by what the obituary had said and decided to use his fortune in a positive way. Over $9 million of his savings went towards funding awards for people who dedicated time and energy to helping others. Nobel Prizes are still given out today and are one of the most highly recognized awards a person can receive.
What a cool story! He saw how people were going to view him had he died the day that his brother passed away. He made significant changes to ensure that he didn't have a legacy that was about death. Randy Alcorn's book has been eye opening. Reading about treasures in heaven is not something I had normally done. I'm so wrapped up in this present life that I often don't give too much thought about heaven and what it's going to be like.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

East Coast

I want to move to the East Coast, preferably New York. I don't really want to be in Southern California anymore. I want to experience life living somewhere else for awhile. I haven't been out of California since 2006 and I've only left twice since starting college. I want to start over somewhere else.